Enggay pay tan. (When do you hear such a Kankanaey phrase? Answer: Commonly during Personal Moments)

ME:

This is the moment: Moment to accept that I was not born to be a part of the academe, moment to realize that I am not a qualified university lecturer as I thought I am. I do not have what it takes to stay longer, I know. For one, university teaching presupposes that I have all the power, time and resources to prepare very elaborated documents as ordered by the elite members of my institution. Templates are made available but such templates were written using propriety software/tools and I do not have the means to easily possess the much needed licensed copies. Should I defy copyright laws to be able to work at home as they are expecting? I promise not to.

Gone were the days when a course syllabus is brief, readable, functional yet complete. Gone were the days when spontaneous creativity while teaching is the norm. Gone were the days when staying in the university is "life".

Computer System-based attendance recording is a breakthrough and understandably a best practice. However, the system at work allows recording of absence only during the day of absence. You cannot postpone data entry for the next day as the supposed "set date" button is disabled. Is it just a glitch? If it is meant that way, is it justified to allocate some minutes of the period for making a system recording instead of maximizing the time for facilitating other activities in the classroom. What if connectivity is difficult as it is usually the case in the lecture rooms.

Of course, it's my work. I should find ways.

Many are called but only a few are chosen, so they say. I am trying! Again, I am trying to find ways. Please bear with me for some time. In my little way, I further promise to ensure that my clients who are clients of my institution will benefit from my extended stay. Yes, minuscule worth but it may be sufficient. #FeelingWorthless

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Kankana-ey Friend: "Eng-gay pay tan!"

Tagalog Friend: "Ginusto mo yan"

Ilocano Friend: "Basol ko pay ngarud"

Ibaloi Friend: "Sus, aishe mangoy bibiyang ko."

True Friend: "Enta kitdi ag-kape!"